oh my god, though, while i was dinking around with the original version of this, i found this filter and i’m kind of in love with it!!  — i’ll have to draw something to use this on soon!  (on this piece, it’s a bit wacky, yeah, but stiiiiilll!)

oh my god, though, while i was dinking around with the original version of this, i found this filter and i’m kind of in love with it!!  — i’ll have to draw something to use this on soon!  (on this piece, it’s a bit wacky, yeah, but stiiiiilll!)

ever the chase to taste the kiss that made your heart tingle / by aud koch
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I FINALLY GOT IT DONE!  WOOH!  i’m sorry it took so long, anon!  your messages have been very sweet; thank you so much for them.  i hope that you’re happy with the results!!!
ALSO:  i have zero musical talent, so i do not know if this music is actually feasible for a panpipe.  it’s ripped from piano sheet music, but hopefully the art is obscured enough that even if it’s not realistically possible, it’s not too obviously wrong???  idk.

ever the chase to taste the kiss that made your heart tingle / by aud koch

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I FINALLY GOT IT DONE!  WOOH!  i’m sorry it took so long, anon!  your messages have been very sweet; thank you so much for them.  i hope that you’re happy with the results!!!

ALSO:  i have zero musical talent, so i do not know if this music is actually feasible for a panpipe.  it’s ripped from piano sheet music, but hopefully the art is obscured enough that even if it’s not realistically possible, it’s not too obviously wrong???  idk.

another thing for marketing!!!  yeaaaah channeling me some art nouveau!

another thing for marketing!!!  yeaaaah channeling me some art nouveau!

excuse me while i bore you with a couple things i’ve done so far for my new job in my co-op’s marketing department!!!

excuse me while i bore you with a couple things i’ve done so far for my new job in my co-op’s marketing department!!!

testing testing.  (this is jazz & duke, fyi.)
so basically:  money i got from selling my car ===> money i spent buying a new computer.  bye bye money.
so i got a macbook pro w/ retina, because my loyalties are like a dog’s, and you know, the thing no one mentions about computers w/ retina?  THEY MAKE EVERYTHING LOOK LIKE SHIIIIIiiiit sob sob.  so much of my art, it’s like, okay this is 600 dpi but it still LOOKS SO PIXELATED LIKE WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO???  SCAN AT 1000 DPI?  NO, THIS HARD DRIVE ONLY HAS 128 GIGS OF SPACE.  THAT’S LIKE 20 IMAGES AT 1000 DPI.
no but i really am happy and so thankful for this computer.  NEW STAGE OF MY LIFE:  GO!
(because ALSO:  i got a new job!!!  at the co-op where i’ve worked as a cashier for a while [read: … a few years], i got hired as the marketing assistant last week!!!  I GET TO MAKE ART AND BE PAID FOR IT!  I AM SO EXCITED!!!)

testing testing.  (this is jazz & duke, fyi.)

so basically:  money i got from selling my car ===> money i spent buying a new computer.  bye bye money.

so i got a macbook pro w/ retina, because my loyalties are like a dog’s, and you know, the thing no one mentions about computers w/ retina?  THEY MAKE EVERYTHING LOOK LIKE SHIIIIIiiiit sob sob.  so much of my art, it’s like, okay this is 600 dpi but it still LOOKS SO PIXELATED LIKE WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO???  SCAN AT 1000 DPI?  NO, THIS HARD DRIVE ONLY HAS 128 GIGS OF SPACE.  THAT’S LIKE 20 IMAGES AT 1000 DPI.

no but i really am happy and so thankful for this computer.  NEW STAGE OF MY LIFE:  GO!

(because ALSO:  i got a new job!!!  at the co-op where i’ve worked as a cashier for a while [read: … a few years], i got hired as the marketing assistant last week!!!  I GET TO MAKE ART AND BE PAID FOR IT!  I AM SO EXCITED!!!)

ALSO a reason i haven’t been posting is because i’ve been working on this thing!!!

um, so i really wanted to bind a book but binding a bunch of blank pages felt depressing, so ~~~ i printed & bound one of my favorite fanfics!  it’s fix by rainjoy, who i adore.  you know how sometimes you get into a tv show’s fandom but then you start hating said tv show *a lot* and you fall out of its fandom — but there’s that one fanfic writer who you can’t drop because they’re just so *talented*?  rainjoy is like that for me.  i really dislike glee now, but i still go back and re-read their stuff because it’s just so *phenomenal*.

basically i only do this with rainjoy’s writings (their fix!verse and their all the other ghosts!verse are my faaaaavorites) and with seperis's STXI reboot series (because their fic, war games? - is a goddamn *gold standard* for me).  eventually my plan is to bind all of these guys so i can keep them with me forever, because they are my canon.  YUP.

I AM WORKING ON STUFF — LIKE THOSE REQUESTS — I SWEAR. i’m sorry i’m being so boring. SOON.

I AM WORKING ON STUFF — LIKE THOSE REQUESTS — I SWEAR. i’m sorry i’m being so boring. SOON.

i currently have a page in my sketchbook which i have helpfully
labeled “page o’ dicks”. It involves satyrs & dryads (because an anon
requested satyrs and my brain went YES). (you can’t draw satyrs
without dicks being involved, you know?)

when i go to the library to scan it in i am going to wear a giant
broad-brimmed hat and tilt it back to hide the screen, and hopefully i
will not look insanely guilty while i frantically click through
photoshop.

…. i really need to buy a new computer oh my god.

officially saving money for it: starting now.

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER IS MY NEW LIFE MOTTO OKAY.
or —- nooo, you know what, i’m not late, i’m just *super* early for next year.  yeaaaaaaah.

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER IS MY NEW LIFE MOTTO OKAY.

or —- nooo, you know what, i’m not late, i’m just *super* early for next year.  yeaaaaaaah.

HAPPY FIRST DAY OF AUTUMN!!! (or if you live in the south, happy first day of spring!)

was gonna post an actual art thing for this but i woke up super sick & have been holed up at home all day so — no scanning capabilities! tomorrow!!!

also — thank you to everyone who gave me prompts! they’re awesome and i’m gonna be posting art for them soon!!! (redkukushka, i’ll definitely be posting some ghost stuff soon!! I’ve been in a spooky mood lately.)

anyone want to give me art prompts (anything: fandoms, characters, situations, dialogues, feelings, a specific scene of an HP book maybe, etc)? like, i can’t promise i’ll do it because my muses are capricious souls but ~~~ i might??? i am feeling scatter-brained on my own today.

loki, odin, & hoenir / by aud k
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okay, so an anon asked:  I’ve always been curious: what’s your interpretation of myth!Loki’s backstory? Where did he come from, what sort of familial environment did he grow up in? How did he become a member of the Aesir?
sorry it took so long to get back to you!  i knew i wanted to draw something for this one but it took a few tries to get it right.  prepare yourself for a novel-length reply.
okay, so norse mythology is a hot mess when it comes to the beginning of things, and i tend to pick & choose my mythology anyway, so what i have thought on this topic (though i haven’t yet sat down & worked out a cohesive mythos of my own) is only very loosely related to the classic Icelandic versions.  mainly i draw inspiration from one book:  Myths and Symbols in Pagan Europe: Early Scandinavian and Celtic Religions by H.R. Ellis Davidson.  you can argue about the validity of this book, but i enjoy it a hell of a lot, so i tend to follow its interpretations.
there’s this one particular passage that’s always stuck in my brain:
"In the beginning, order emerged out of chaos.  Formlessness before creation was not represented by water, as in some mythologies, but by a great abyss, Ginnungagap, which might be translated Gulf of Deceiving, because its deceiving emptiness was in reality pregnant with potential energy and form.  Ice formed in the gap, and embers of fire came into it from the realm of Muspell, the region of burning heat, and from these extremes a mighty giant was created.  He was both male and female, and his name Ymir seems to mean Two-fold Being.  Tacitus records Tvisto as the first ancestor of the Germans, and this name appears to have a similar meaning.  A race of giants emerged from Ymir’s body, and he was nourished on the milk of a primeval cow, which licked the ice-blocks to release a new set of beings, three brothers called the Sons of Bor.  These slew Ymir, and then formed the Earth from his body and the sea from his blood; the sky was raised aloft by four dwarves, creatures which bred in Ymir’s body, and then sun and moon were set in place and time began.  Three creator gods, perhaps the same as the Sons of Bor, walked on the seashore, which we have seen represented as the place of creative inspiration […].  There they found two trees, driftwood washed ashore, breathed vitality and spirit into them, and gave them movement, so that the first man and woman came to life.
"Here the gods are seen as the creators of the world of men, and of mankind, but the giants preceded them.  In the poems, the giants are seen as the possessors of ancient wisdom, since only they can remember the far-off beginnings, and even Odin turned to them when he wished to increase his knowledge.  We cannot be sure who these creator gods were.  In Voluspa they are said to be Odin with Lodur and Hoenir, two gods of whom little is known.  Lodur has been identified by some with Loki, who is often the companion of Odin and in some ways might be seen as a shadow creative figure, giving birth to Odin’s horse Sleipnir, to monsters, and to Hel, Goddess of Death.” [p. 173-4]
i love the idea of this creative trinity, though the fact that they’re all men makes me roll my eyes.  for me, there’s Odin (masculine), Hoenir (feminine), and Loki (both and neither).  (i’ve obviously been playing around with my design of odin.)  i haven’t connected their story into anything larger yet — i don’t know how odin’s court came about, for instance — but the image of these three siblings wandering the realms before hardly anything else existed is one that i loooove.

loki, odin, & hoenir / by aud k

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okay, so an anon asked:  I’ve always been curious: what’s your interpretation of myth!Loki’s backstory? Where did he come from, what sort of familial environment did he grow up in? How did he become a member of the Aesir?

sorry it took so long to get back to you!  i knew i wanted to draw something for this one but it took a few tries to get it right.  prepare yourself for a novel-length reply.

okay, so norse mythology is a hot mess when it comes to the beginning of things, and i tend to pick & choose my mythology anyway, so what i have thought on this topic (though i haven’t yet sat down & worked out a cohesive mythos of my own) is only very loosely related to the classic Icelandic versions.  mainly i draw inspiration from one book:  Myths and Symbols in Pagan Europe: Early Scandinavian and Celtic Religions by H.R. Ellis Davidson.  you can argue about the validity of this book, but i enjoy it a hell of a lot, so i tend to follow its interpretations.

there’s this one particular passage that’s always stuck in my brain:

"In the beginning, order emerged out of chaos.  Formlessness before creation was not represented by water, as in some mythologies, but by a great abyss, Ginnungagap, which might be translated Gulf of Deceiving, because its deceiving emptiness was in reality pregnant with potential energy and form.  Ice formed in the gap, and embers of fire came into it from the realm of Muspell, the region of burning heat, and from these extremes a mighty giant was created.  He was both male and female, and his name Ymir seems to mean Two-fold Being.  Tacitus records Tvisto as the first ancestor of the Germans, and this name appears to have a similar meaning.  A race of giants emerged from Ymir’s body, and he was nourished on the milk of a primeval cow, which licked the ice-blocks to release a new set of beings, three brothers called the Sons of Bor.  These slew Ymir, and then formed the Earth from his body and the sea from his blood; the sky was raised aloft by four dwarves, creatures which bred in Ymir’s body, and then sun and moon were set in place and time began.  Three creator gods, perhaps the same as the Sons of Bor, walked on the seashore, which we have seen represented as the place of creative inspiration […].  There they found two trees, driftwood washed ashore, breathed vitality and spirit into them, and gave them movement, so that the first man and woman came to life.

"Here the gods are seen as the creators of the world of men, and of mankind, but the giants preceded them.  In the poems, the giants are seen as the possessors of ancient wisdom, since only they can remember the far-off beginnings, and even Odin turned to them when he wished to increase his knowledge.  We cannot be sure who these creator gods were.  In Voluspa they are said to be Odin with Lodur and Hoenir, two gods of whom little is known.  Lodur has been identified by some with Loki, who is often the companion of Odin and in some ways might be seen as a shadow creative figure, giving birth to Odin’s horse Sleipnir, to monsters, and to Hel, Goddess of Death.” [p. 173-4]

i love the idea of this creative trinity, though the fact that they’re all men makes me roll my eyes.  for me, there’s Odin (masculine), Hoenir (feminine), and Loki (both and neither).  (i’ve obviously been playing around with my design of odin.)  i haven’t connected their story into anything larger yet — i don’t know how odin’s court came about, for instance — but the image of these three siblings wandering the realms before hardly anything else existed is one that i loooove.

1)  THANK YOU SO MUCH to the people who have tipped me so far, oh my goodness!  you are all absolutely lovely, wonderful people!!  i won’t list you (because anonymity, yeah), but know that i am thinking of you!

2)  it has been brought to my attention that some people may have tried to e-mail me in regards to this post (about buying originals of my art?).  er, if you have done so and haven’t gotten a response yet, I’M SO SORRY.  when my computer crashed i lost access to my otter.cook e-mail (because i am a dumb human being).  my new e-mail is aud.a.koch, if you want to try again?  (it’s a gmail account.)  i’m sorry.

3) does anyone know if a paypal business account is worth it?  (paypal’s website is useless, cheezus.)

i have a tip jar now!!! 

if anyone ever feels particularly inspired to tip me (even if it’s only, like, $0.25, i don’t care, it’s all lovely) i would just be all-around thankful and happy!!!

i was being maudlin & redrew the young avengers.  *sigh*  if i could get paid just to draw faces & expressions all day, i would be so ridiculously happy!
top row:  kate bishop, nate richards (thanks, khirsah!), eli bradley
middle row:  billy kaplan, teddy altman
bottom row:  tommy shepherd, cassie lang
(you can tell how far i got in the series based on the fact that i did not know nate’s last name.)

i was being maudlin & redrew the young avengers.  *sigh*  if i could get paid just to draw faces & expressions all day, i would be so ridiculously happy!

top row:  kate bishop, nate richards (thanks, khirsah!), eli bradley

middle row:  billy kaplan, teddy altman

bottom row:  tommy shepherd, cassie lang

(you can tell how far i got in the series based on the fact that i did not know nate’s last name.)